By now I’m sure that most people in my social network and in my personal life have figured out that my relationship status has gone from “in a relationship” to “single.” Not to make light of the situation, but everyone knows that when it happens on Facebook, it’s really official.

{Currently listening to Neil Young: “The Needle and the Damage Done”}

Neil Young

I don’t even have a playlist made for this occasion. That’s how serious things have become. I find myself grasping desperately at any song that might make me feel better.

A Perfect Circle: "Mer De Noms" album cover

When I want to be angry and spiteful, I might put on A Perfect Circle when I’m driving or listen to some Fiona Apple, but then there are times when I want to be happy, so I’ll put on some Passion Pit or MGMT. But the happiness seems forced.

Writing with raw emotion is not something that I am used to. I usually practice restraint and throw out the quick-witted joke here and there, but now that all seems mundane. I know that this too shall pass, but my questions is when? Exactly how much time has to pass before I am able to get some answers?

So I decide to let go and let iTunes do its little shuffle thing and we’ll see how it goes from there. Pretty good I’d say.

{Led Zeppelin: “In My Time of Dying”}

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Music really can save your life. And now that we’re in the age of the iPod, it’s easy to be a control freak and decide each and every song that comes on. But every now and then, if you have a little faith and leave things up to fate you may be happily surprised.

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